World is tilted....

So I am here at Moms. She is doing okay. No pain just weakness. She is fine as long as she is sitting but when she gets up and moves around she becomes exhausted.
Mom has always been the type of person that does everything herself. She does not ask or wait for it to be done for her. Until now that is. She has not lifted a finger when I cook or clean up from meals. It has been several weeks since I have cooked so I am actually enjoying myself but it is still a little disconcerting.
The other thing that is weird is that I am up before she is. I just dont know what to do with myself. She was probably up in the middle of the night and that is why she is sleeping now but it is still very unusual.

The girls are doing okay. Tonie is very verbal about how she feels. Alisa does not acknowledge it. Amazing what opposites they are. Stacy and I often comment about how one is like him and the other is like me... Does that mean Stacy and I are that different from each other? It doesn't seam so to me because I feel so connected to him. You know the normal marriage stuff where you know what the other is thinking or going to say kind of thing. But there is more too. Even thousands of miles away I can pick up the phone to call him and he is calling me. Or I will go thru this thought process and come to a conclusion that I think is way off from where I started only to discuss it with Stacy and he is right there with me.
If I use this logic with the girls then I guess I can not worry so much about their bickering and nitpicking with each other. Then again I am a Mom and I don't think I could let that go.

Flying Sucks!!!!

Flew to Ohio Friday. What a pain. Not only the usual crud that goes with flying but it was also a holiday so the planes were packed.

Started with the very first plane where I was stuck in the middle. One of the engines sensors went off because of overheating so we pulled back into the gate for 45 minutes. We, of course, were not allowed off the plane. Got to Houston and that was delayed because they had overbooked and were trying to bargin with people to give up seats. We also sat on the runway awaiting our turn for 40 minutes.
I sat next to a really great guy who went on and on about how to use the system, about his job as a loan officer and how he doesnt care about anyones sob stories, about how rich he is, about how he is a God fearing man, about how he is tired of homeless, wellfare and all the rest sucking up good air. I am assuming he is more worthy of "good air" than all us regular folk. I tried to play oppossom but he just turned to the next person and kept going.
Then we get to Nashville and we are so late that they are holding planes. Yep. Mine was one of them. I sprinted to the next packed flight only to be glared at by passengers. That flight I found out that doctors are paid to go sit in hospitals with approching hurricanes. This lady's brother was getting paid $11,000.00 to be there Friday pm to Sunday am.
Got to Ohio only 30 minutes late and I had all my luggage so its not all bad.

Now I just need a day for the headache, stomachache, and other unmentionable ailments to go away.

Cactus and sticker bushes

We went and looked at some property before Stacy left.

The property is 16 acres. There is a gutted house that has a great frame to start our dream house with. There is also a trailer on the property but we are going to do away with that and get a small modular house to live in while Stacy builds the dream house. The fun part will be trying to create a yard. All that is there now is dirt, rocks, cacti and sticker bushes. I will have trees and grass... even if only a small area.

We're Here!!!

We finally made it. Don't know how we would have done it without our wonderful Gel Group. They pretty much stepped in and took over and got us packed and loaded on the truck. I think both Stacy and I were pretending to be ostriches with our head in the sand kind of thing.

So we are here in Texas.

MMMM…..

With everything that was happening I pretty much decided that everything was going to get better when we finally got here. Of course it didn’t magically turn out sunshine and rainbows…. Mom is still sick, house still needs to be fixed, we still need to find a place to stay, Stacy is still retiring at the end of September so he is still thousands of miles away.

I woke up the other day and kinda had this “oh crap!” moment (just for you Mary!). When I realized that my life did not settle or fix itself and that I just had to deal with the stuff that has been happening. You know, that is never fun. I cried, I prayed, I shopped – well wishful shopping anyway. You know, when you go into a store and put a whole bunch of things in your cart and then after an hour of wandering you go back and put things back where you got them. I then did the smart thing and started writing down all the things that were bothering me. It’s amazing how little they become when you look at them a different way.